So today is a little better than yesterday... I don't feel totally hopeless. Daniel's mom, Linda, bought me a new bible today... Women of Faith study bible -- NIV. I've been needing a new bible, too. I have an American standard and a king James, but I love the way that the NIV reads. Much easier to understand.

Today I started taking 2 effexor a day. For the first 6 days I had to take 1/2 pill. Then the next 7 days, I take 1 in AM and 1 in PM. After that, I take 3 a day. I hope it works. I haven't had any side affects yet other than it's difficult to eat. But that might be from a combination of things....

Daniel isn't sleeping well this week. Every night he gets less and less sleep. He just switched back over to the 2nd shift on his job, and he's thinking that's what has thrown him off. I think it may have something to do with him having depression, also.

It makes me feel bad when I see him in emotional turmoil. I wish there was something I could do for him, but there really isn't anything I can do. It's some kind of codependent thing... where I want so badly to help others, but can't help myself. It's like I want to save the world... and at the same time, just want somebody to come save me.

~Molly.