Guess Again My Nigga!

yea so yesterday i thought about closing this blog. and started thinking about why? WHY the FUCK would I close this blog, simply because somebody calls me an idiot? Yea, it hurt my feelings, but then I start thinking, "Hey, I might be on drugs, but I'm not stupid."

I do things. I am a mother. A writer. A designer. I go to school, and work from home. I have a beautiful family, with a loving husband and great grandparents for my beautiful daughter. I have my faith, I have confidence, and I have strength. I am not afraid of the critics and the hecklers out there in the world, because there are two types of people; those who do, and those who ridicule.

So after I got offline, I went and watched Heckler by Jamie Kennedy on Showtime. And it reminded me of these things, that somebody that calls you an idiot is just trying to get a rise out of you. They are trying to make themselves feel better for being a nobody who has never accomplished anything in their meaningless life.

I look at you, girl, and I see your sadness. And it hurts my heart to think that you live in such a miserable state of mind, that you don't have anything better to do than criticize others to make yourself feel better.

Yea, I might not "get it," I might be an "idiot," and on drugs, but you know what? I'm going somewhere. I'm going to be somebody. I'm making a name for myself. I have a 3.6 GPA and went to school my entire pregnancy. I had a csection and was ready to start my next quarter when my daughter was a week old. So I went to school, hurting and doped up, walked into that classroom, and decided that the pain was well worth it.

Because I LOVE adobe. I LOVE painting and creating and slicing and disolving and pen points and distortion and watermarks and blur and the ability to choose from like... a BILLION colors! and I LOVE to write! I love to write about people that hate on me. And I pray for people that hate me. And I wonder to myself, "Why? Why do they waste their time trying to bring me down off my high? BUZZKILL NIGGA.

I am a woman of the crucifix. Jesus Christ is my saivor, and I try to walk in his footsteps, and I never will walk the exact path, but I can walk beside Him. And because of that, you will never bring me down again. And I will keep being me and I'll continue to call the cops if i think some chick is getting beat up by some dude twice her size, and I will NOT think twice about it. Because guess what PUNK NIGGA!! I'm SAVED and I'm Free and I'm happy and there's nothing that you or anybody else will be able to do about it.

<3 Molly.