i wanna sink.

i just wanna sink into the ground right now.
and sleep oh sweet sleep.
it's almost 2 am.
my lover is telling me to get a life insurance policy.
and it makes me cry.
i don't want him to die.
i am tired.
i want to sleep.
i want to not eat for days
and live off of coffee and nicotine.
i want to slip away.
into unconsciousness.
until tomorrow.